Anxiety Disorder

Anxiety Disorder is a very stressful disease to PUT UP WITH...It really strikes YOU so bad... It comes and goes, but IT NEVER LEAVES YOU FOREVER... It is a very bad mental sickness... I WISH I COULD HAVE IMAGINARY FRIENDS TO TALK rather than dealing with unbearable sickness... It puts me into a SUICIDAL MODE... IT MAKES ME FEEL SO DOWN that I CAN NOT GO OUT for a very long time... I do not WHY this happens to ME, BUT IN MY FAMILY, MY GRAN USED TO SUFFER FROM the same disease... SHE WAS GETTING CRAZY AND SO NASTY... WELL, I AM SO PROUD THAT I AM HER GRAND DAUGHTER...

SHE WAS CURSING ALL DAY AND NIGHT... LOOOOOOOOOL... I DO THE SAME AND TO BE HONEST I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE A FAMILY EVER... I HAVE NO FEARS, I JUST HAVE LOTS OF SHITS THAT I DID... I AM AFRAID OF NOTHING, I HAVE THIS ANXIETY ATTACKS DUE TO MY OWN FAILURES IN LIFE...WHAT IF A LIFE GIVES ME A SECOND CHANCE TO SURVIVE? LIFE IS A VERY LONG JOURNEY...

I am never HAPPY, ALL OTHER people can experience the feeling of JOY. ON THE CONTRARY, I AM VERY RESERVED PERSON AND I JUST DO NOT WANT TO HAVE ANYONE AROUND ME... I KNOW THAT I WILL PASS AWAY ALONE... WHO CARES? WHO CARES? WHO CARES?

I HATE TO SEE PEOPLE'S HAPPINESS... I HATE THAT THEY BECOME A COUPLE... I HATE THAT THEY DO SUCCEED MANY THINGS IN THIS FUCKED UP LIFE... I HAVE SEVERE ANXIETY ATTACKS AND I LOSE THE CONTROL...

I HAD A MAJOR ATTACK TODAY AND IT TOOK ME 5 HOURS TO DEAL WITH THIS SHIT... OF COURSE, THEY ALWAYS THREATHEN ME TO LOCK ME UP... LOOOOOOOOOOL... I WILL NEVER HAVE ANYONE SPECIAL BECAUSE THEY WILL NEVER HANDLE ME AND MY SEVERE ATTACKS...

I AM SORRY FOR THEM MUCH BECAUSE THEY LOST ME... AS I ALWAYS SAY, I NEVER LOSE ANYONE... IF THEY NEVER CAN CHOOSE TO BE WITH ME, I CAN NEVER LOVE THEM FOREVER... THEY LOVE ME OR THEY HATE ME OR THEY DO MISS ME, I HAVE MY OWN ISSUES TO FIX AND I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO ACHIEVE ANYTHING IN LIFE...

LIFE IS A SAD AND TRAGIC MOMENT IN WHICH WE WILL ALWAYS FEEL LIKE A WASTE BAG... THEY THROW US AWAY, WE THROW THEM AWAY AND IT IS A VICIOUS CIRCLE THAT NO ONE CAN BE WITH THE OTHER ONE FOR A LONG TIME...

ANXIETY ATTACKS HURT ME PHYSICALLY, TOO. I GET WORSE AND I WILL NEVER GET BETTER...

IT IS A CHOICE AND I CHOOSE TO HAVE THESE ATTACKS...

MY GRAN GOT CANCER AND I AM THE NEXT...

LIFE WILL GIVE ME A WAY TO GET RID OF IT...

AS SHE ALWAYS SAID TO ME, DO NOT WORRY MY CHILD... YOU WILL BE FINE...

DO NOT FEEL WORRY ABOUT ME, WORRY ABOUT YOUR OWN TRAGEDIES...

FOR GOD'S SAKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, LEAVE ME ALONE IN MY DREAMS...

LEAVE ME ON MY OWN...

THE CRAZY MAN KISSES ME ALWAYS AND HE CROSSES THE LINES AND DOES NOT STOP KISSING ME LATELY... WHATEVER HE DOES, I DO NOT LOVE HIM... I AM NEVER HIS FRIEND...

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE CRAZY...

GIVE PEOPLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE LONELY TIME BECAUSE THEY DO NOT WANT YOU....